Dear Simon,
This weekend the weather was so beautiful. Friday night was our Face2Face Metro East meeting. Lil C's mommy, Jeremy's mommy and I went and got ice cream. Then we walked over to the Angel of Hope statue. It was so pretty and quiet there. We were able to remember our angels and have a little peace. Daddy and I are buying a brick for you there. I will show you a picture when it is done. On Saturday, Daddy ran a race and we spent the afternoon at a festival. It was nice, but there were so many babies and kids playing and having fun. I missed you so much and wished you were there to enjoy the day. Sunday was another happy-sad day. It was such a beautiful day, the nicest we have had all year. Lil C's parents, Jeremy's parents and Daddy and I went on a bike ride. Jeremy's little sister was with us all day. She is such a sweet girl and we had so much fun. But again, I was sad thinking of you not being there. All of the fun, cute things she did, I thought about how I would never get to see you do those things. You will never eat a melting ice cream cone. You will never go on a bike ride with me and Daddy. You will never torment the cat. I want those moments with you. And it makes me so sad that we will never have them. So when you see Daddy and me having fun, always remember that you are right there on our minds, and we are wishing more than anything that you were there with us. I love you baby boy.
Love,
Mommy
Monday, June 13, 2011
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Today is a sad day.
Dear Simon,
Today Mommy got the awful news that your baby brother or sister went to join you in Heaven. We only just found out we were going to have a baby last week. It makes me feel a little better to know you are together. I decided to call the baby Sibley, because it means 'brother or sister.' So please tell Sibley that we love them and that even though we only had them for 6 weeks, we will never forget them.
I feel so beaten down. I miss you so much every second of every day. When I found out I was going to have Sibley, I was excited for the first time in almost a year. And now all that is crashing down around me. All I want in life is to be a mom. And I know that I will always be your mom, but I want you here with me. And since I can't have that, I want a little brother or sister to be with me here on Earth. I feel so hopeless. I know God has a plan, but right now, I'm not loving that plan so much. I want something good in my life again. Daddy and I are so lost and hurt and angry. We love you and miss you SO much, Simon. It is hard to even imagine a life filled with happiness anymore. Daddy and I wanted 2 children. Now we have 2, but you are both in Heaven. It is unfair. I want my babies. I want you back.
Love,
Mommy
Today Mommy got the awful news that your baby brother or sister went to join you in Heaven. We only just found out we were going to have a baby last week. It makes me feel a little better to know you are together. I decided to call the baby Sibley, because it means 'brother or sister.' So please tell Sibley that we love them and that even though we only had them for 6 weeks, we will never forget them.
I feel so beaten down. I miss you so much every second of every day. When I found out I was going to have Sibley, I was excited for the first time in almost a year. And now all that is crashing down around me. All I want in life is to be a mom. And I know that I will always be your mom, but I want you here with me. And since I can't have that, I want a little brother or sister to be with me here on Earth. I feel so hopeless. I know God has a plan, but right now, I'm not loving that plan so much. I want something good in my life again. Daddy and I are so lost and hurt and angry. We love you and miss you SO much, Simon. It is hard to even imagine a life filled with happiness anymore. Daddy and I wanted 2 children. Now we have 2, but you are both in Heaven. It is unfair. I want my babies. I want you back.
Love,
Mommy
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