Today Mommy got the awful news that your baby brother or sister went to join you in Heaven. We only just found out we were going to have a baby last week. It makes me feel a little better to know you are together. I decided to call the baby Sibley, because it means 'brother or sister.' So please tell Sibley that we love them and that even though we only had them for 6 weeks, we will never forget them.
I feel so beaten down. I miss you so much every second of every day. When I found out I was going to have Sibley, I was excited for the first time in almost a year. And now all that is crashing down around me. All I want in life is to be a mom. And I know that I will always be your mom, but I want you here with me. And since I can't have that, I want a little brother or sister to be with me here on Earth. I feel so hopeless. I know God has a plan, but right now, I'm not loving that plan so much. I want something good in my life again. Daddy and I are so lost and hurt and angry. We love you and miss you SO much, Simon. It is hard to even imagine a life filled with happiness anymore. Daddy and I wanted 2 children. Now we have 2, but you are both in Heaven. It is unfair. I want my babies. I want you back.